Chapter 2 - The Messages I Never Sent

The pediatric nurse told us to take Liam’s temperature immediately.
It was 96.9.
She instructed us to warm him gradually, feed him, and bring him to the emergency department if his temperature did not rise within twenty minutes or if his breathing changed.
I wrapped him against my chest beneath my sweatshirt while Maya sat at the table, gray with pain.
Eleanor paced behind us.
“This is absurd. The baby was fine until you came in shouting.”
I ignored her.
Liam’s temperature rose to 97.5, but Maya’s incision had begun leaking through the edge of the dressing. I called a car and packed the diaper bag.
My mother followed us toward the door.
“You can’t leave me here after speaking to me like that.”
“This isn’t your home.”
The words surprised both of us.
She stared at me.
For years, Eleanor had treated every space I occupied as an extension of her authority. My first apartment. My office. Our wedding. Maya’s pregnancy. I had called it involvement because admitting it was control would have required me to confront her.
I took back her key.
At NewYork-Presbyterian Brooklyn Methodist, a nurse examined Maya while another checked Liam. He stabilized after feeding and skin-to-skin contact. Maya had strained the tissue around her incision but had not reopened it completely.
When the nurse asked what had happened, Maya looked at me.
“His mother took my phone,” she said.
My stomach tightened.
Eleanor had claimed Maya misplaced it.
“She said Daniel wanted me off it because I was being emotional,” Maya continued. “Then messages started coming through on the tablet.”
“What messages?” I asked.
She opened the old iPad we kept in the diaper bag for hospital forms and video calls.
The conversation appeared under my name.
Mom is responsible tonight. Stop fighting her.
We can’t afford another grocery order.
Do what she says and let me work.
Maya had replied four times.
Where is my phone?
Liam is cold.
I need my medication.
Please call me.
I had received none of them.
The messages sent from my account did not appear on my phone, but they remained on the tablet because someone had deleted them from another synced device before the servers fully updated.
Maya stared at the bare ring mark on her finger.
“Your mother knew exactly what words would sound like you.”
I thought of the old iPad mounted beneath our kitchen cabinet, the one I used for recipes and building plans.
May you like
It was still signed into my messages.
And Eleanor knew its six-digit passcode.