Chapter 4 - MY MOTHER’S LAST REQUEST
Rafael had never opened the envelope.
“My father told me it belonged to you,” he said. “He made me promise to wait until Frank couldn’t hurt anyone.”
“My father has been dead six years.”
“I kept finding reasons you weren’t ready.”
The admission carried its own cruelty. Rafael had spent decades deciding what I could survive without ever allowing me to choose.
I opened the letter.
My mother wrote that she planned to leave Frank after the motel’s summer season. She had discovered that he was using company accounts to hide gambling debts and loans taken against property that belonged partly to her.
She intended to take me with her.
Victor, then eighteen, had agreed to help us reach her sister in Atlanta.
At the bottom, she had written:
Rafael knows where I put the papers. If Frank finds them first, he’ll burn more than records.
I read the sentence twice.
Rafael sat across from me, shoulders curved beneath his shirt.
On the night of the fire, Isabel had asked him to retrieve a packet from the motel laundry room. It contained bank statements, loan agreements, and a draft divorce petition.
Before he could reach it, he saw Frank carrying a red fuel can into the manager’s office.
“Did you see him start the fire?”
“No. I saw smoke a few minutes later.”
Rafael ran upstairs when he heard me screaming. The main stairwell was already burning, so he climbed the exterior maintenance ladder and broke through the bathroom window.
He found me on the floor.
My mother was still in the corridor.
“She pushed you toward me,” he said. “Then she went back.”
“For the papers?”
“I thought so.”
He carried me down the ladder while flames burned through his shirt. By the time he tried to return, part of the roof had collapsed.
The original fire investigator interviewed him from his hospital bed. Rafael mentioned the fuel can and the papers. My father entered before the interview ended and ordered everyone out.
The investigator’s supplemental report disappeared soon afterward.
I looked again at my mother’s letter.
Victor had promised to help us leave, yet the witness report placed an adult male family member by the service door.
Frank was fifty-two that summer.
No one would have described him as a young man.
Victor had been at the motel that night, though he had spent sixty-four years claiming he was in Jacksonville.
Rafael looked away when I said my brother’s name.
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He had not told me everything.
The person who locked the rear service door had not been my father.
