Chapter 2 - THE LIE HE CHOSE FIRST

Caleb followed me downstairs, speaking too quickly.
“Nora, don’t open that until I explain.”
I stopped beside the dining table.
“You’ve had twenty-four years to explain.”
Isabel remained near the staircase, wrapping both arms around herself.
I broke the envelope seal.
Caleb lunged forward.
I lifted my phone between us. “Touch this, and the recording goes straight to Logan.”
He froze.
Inside the envelope were three things: a photograph of a young woman holding a newborn, a folded letter, and a sealed medical laboratory report.
The woman in the photograph was Marissa Romero.
I remembered her from the adoption agency.
At least, I thought I did.
Caleb and I had struggled to have a second child after Logan. Two miscarriages were followed by an emergency surgery that ended any chance of another pregnancy. I had spent a year moving through our house like someone had turned down the sound.
Then Caleb came home one evening and said a private adoption attorney knew of a pregnant woman considering placement.
Her name was Marissa.
We met her twice.
She was twenty-two, quiet, and frightened. Caleb told me she had been referred by a church outreach program where one of his coworkers volunteered. Marissa barely looked at him during our meetings.
I had mistaken avoidance for embarrassment.
Now I understood it might have been guilt.
I unfolded the letter.
Nora,
If you are reading this, I am probably gone. I have spent years telling myself that silence protected Harper. The truth is that silence protected Caleb, and I let him convince me they were the same thing.
My stomach tightened.
I stopped reading.
“How long?” I asked.
Caleb looked at Isabel instead of me.
“How long were you sleeping with her?”
“It wasn’t—”
“Do not insult me by arguing over the correct word.”
He rubbed both hands over his face.
“It happened during the summer program in Milwaukee. You and I were having problems.”
“We were grieving two miscarriages.”
“I know.”
“No, you don’t get to say that like you were standing beside me. Apparently, you were standing beside Marissa.”
Isabel closed her eyes.
Caleb glanced toward her. “This isn’t helping.”
She opened them again. “You told me my mother was confused.”
“She was sick.”
“She had cancer, Caleb. She wasn’t delusional.”
The use of his first name cut through the room.
I looked at Isabel. “What did he tell you?”
“That he knew my mother before Harper’s adoption.” Her voice shook. “He said they made a mistake together. He said I might be his daughter.”
The room tilted.
I grabbed the back of a dining chair.
Logan and Isabel.
The ring hidden in my dresser.
The reservation Caleb had made at a supper club near Lake Mendota so both families could celebrate after the proposal.
“No,” I said.
Caleb stepped toward me. “That’s why she came here. She found the letter after Marissa died. She called me because she didn’t know what to do.”
“And your solution was to hold her in our bedroom?”
“She was falling apart.”
“You brought her upstairs?”
“I didn’t want a neighbor seeing through the front windows.”
There it was.
Even then, he had been thinking about appearances.
I turned to Isabel. “Does Logan know?”
She shook her head. “I couldn’t tell him until I knew.”
“Knew what?”
She looked at the sealed laboratory report in my hand.
Caleb spoke before she could.
“The test isn’t complete.”
Isabel stared at him. “That’s not true.”
His voice hardened. “You don’t understand what those numbers mean.”
“My mother was a lab technician. She explained them in the letter.”
I held the report but didn’t open it.
“Caleb,” I said, “are you Isabel’s father?”
His eyes filled with tears.
For one terrible second, I almost felt sorry for him.
Then he said, “It’s possible.”
Isabel made a strangled sound.
I turned.
She was looking at Caleb with disgust.
“That’s the lie you chose?” she asked.
His face changed.
Not confusion.
Warning.
Isabel walked toward me.
“The report isn’t about me and Caleb.”
Caleb stepped in front of her. “Enough.”
She moved around him.
“My mother had me tested against someone else.”
“Isabel.”
“She had access to a sample because Harper stayed with us last summer.”
I remembered the weekend. Harper and Isabel had gone to Chicago for a concert. They had come back laughing about how often strangers assumed they were sisters.
May you like
Isabel’s lower lip trembled.
“They weren’t wrong.”