Chapter 1 - THE CHILD BESIDE THE HIGHWAY
“Your daughter threw up in the van, so we left her on the side of the road.”
My mother said it as if she were explaining why she had thrown away a spoiled carton of milk.
I stood in the middle of a conference room in downtown Wichita, one hand still resting on the quarterly report I had been presenting.
“You left Abigail where?”
“There’s a utility pole near the location I sent you. She has her backpack.”
My father’s voice came from somewhere behind her.
“Tell Catherine not to turn this into a crisis. The girl is fine.”
My chest tightened so hard I could barely breathe.
“She’s eight years old.”
“And your nephews were getting upset,” my mother replied. “We had a flight to catch. We couldn’t let one child ruin the entire family trip.”
Then she hung up.
I left my laptop open on the conference table, grabbed my purse and ran.
The location pin led me twenty-seven miles west of the city, to a lonely stretch of Kansas highway surrounded by dry grass and flat farmland. Trucks passed in bursts, shaking the heat above the asphalt.
I saw Abigail before I had fully stopped the car.
She stood beside a rusted utility pole, clutching an olive-green backpack against her chest. Her blonde hair was stuck to her wet cheeks. Dust covered the knees of her jeans.
There was no store.
No gas station.
No adult nearby.
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I threw open the driver’s door and ran across the gravel.
“Abbie, don’t move!”
She shrank back for half a second before she recognized me.
Then her face crumpled.
“Mom!”
I reached her, dropped to my knees and wrapped both arms around her. Her entire body trembled against mine.
“I’m here. I’ve got you.”
“Grandma left me.”
I pulled her farther from the highway and placed myself between her and the traffic.
“Are you hurt?”
She shook her head.
“Did anyone touch you?”
“No.”
“Did you hit your head?”
“No. I just got sick.”
She stared down at her backpack.
“I tried not to. Grandma told me not to embarrass everybody, but the van was hot and Tyler kept spraying that vanilla stuff.”
My brother’s son had a habit of emptying half a can of air freshener whenever someone complained about a smell.
Abigail swallowed.
“I threw up on the floor mat. Grandma got mad. She said I ruined everything.”
“You did nothing wrong.”
“She said my cousins shouldn’t miss their vacation because of me.”
I held her face between my hands.
“Listen to me. Carsickness is not bad behavior. You didn’t choose it, and you didn’t ruin anything.”
Her eyes searched mine.
“Are they not going to love me anymore?”
Something inside me went completely still.
My parents had always favored my brother Mark’s sons. They bought them expensive birthday gifts and attended every baseball game. With Abigail, they forgot school concerts, complained about her food allergies and acted as if any accommodation were an unreasonable demand.
I had excused it.
I told myself they needed time.
Abigail was not my biological daughter. I had married her father, Ben, when she was eighteen months old. After he died in a construction accident three years later, I completed the adoption we had already begun.
I was the mother who sat beside her hospital bed when she had pneumonia.
The mother who learned how to braid her hair.
The mother she called when the dark felt too big.
My parents had promised that biology did not matter.
Standing beside that highway, I finally understood that they had been lying.
I helped Abigail into my car, cleaned her face with wipes and gave her water in slow sips. Before I closed the door, I noticed something sticking from the side pocket of her backpack.
A folded airport itinerary.
I opened it.
Six passenger names were listed.
Theresa Miller.
Robert Miller.
Mark Miller.
His wife, Dana.
Their sons, Tyler and Eli.
Abigail’s name was not there.
I looked at my daughter.
“Sweetheart, did Grandma give you a plane ticket?”
She shook her head.
“She said she would give it to me at the airport.”
I photographed the itinerary and put it back.
During the drive home, Abigail kept one hand wrapped around two of my fingers.
Every few minutes, she checked my face.
“Are you mad at me?”
“No.”
“Are you sure?”
“I’m angry,” I said. “But never at you.”
When we reached home, I settled her on the couch with a blanket, crackers and an electrolyte drink.
She was almost asleep when she whispered, “Grandma said you’d come get me because you always fix things.”
I stopped beside the doorway.
“What exactly did she say?”
Abigail’s eyes remained closed.
“She told Grandpa not to worry. She said they’d planned for this.”
I looked at the itinerary again.
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My parents had not made a cruel decision in a stressful moment.
They had driven away with six plane tickets because Abigail had never been included in the trip at all.
